I didn't know his first name

I didn't know his first name
nor who he is
fair
I trusted him
one night

just remember
his voice
his body

but I left my heart there

me the high priestess I did everything
I do not believe it
I persuade myself
I arrive there

oubliette exists
I do it
I risk big

for the forgotten

I forget a large part of my life

and i live

without loving
without believing
without love

why love

I am insensitive

I will not arrive there